Sunday, August 19, 2012
The fire burnt up the trees and I made a break for the front door. I had to get the kids out of there before it was too late. But the second I touched the door knob...I pulled my hand back. The heat had burnt up the door and to the door knob. My hand was instantly burned.
So instead, I rammed my body against the door and it came down the second I hit it.
Nothing...everything was on fire. Every little thing. Smoke welled up in my lungs. My eyes were swelling and my head reeling.
"MOM!" I heard a shrill cry from the last bedroom. The door was open and huddled in the corner, were all the kids together...The babysitter standing over them...Matches in one hand and a gas can in the other. My heart stopped as she smiled at me and threw a match down on the floor next to the kids and I watched all of them go up in flames....
The memories of the fire hurt. I didn't know what happened exactly, but waiting was what I was best at.
"Ande, do you know where you are?"
I shook my head, unable to speak or even really focus on the man.
"You're in the hospital...You've been very shaken. Follow me and I'll explain everything."
"My kids....They're dead aren't they...?"
"Sweetheart, don't worry. I'll explain everything!"
"Your doctor over on Langly Island called me last night. He told me that I should watch over you because you 'time travel'. I thought he was crazy but I told him that I'd do him a favor and go check on you.
When I got there, you weren't at your house and the babysitter was playing with the kids. But right as I was about to leave, you appeared out of nowhere talking nonsense about a fire and the babysitter killing your children. I thought I was going insane too because...you had burns all over you skin. I rushed your kids over to my house to stay with my wife until you could safely return home. She's readying them today to visit their grandparents."
"You mean...I had time traveled? Only minutes into the future?"
He pulled my burn covered hand into his. "This should be all the proof that you need, Ande."
"How long was I out of it?"
"Oh, just a couple days. But we were able to contact your parents and they're taking care of everything for you. They're worried about you..."
"Tell them that I'm fine. Just a little burnt..."
"Will do! Now, get some rest and I'll be back in just a little bit with something for those burns."
I fell asleep instantly.
"Oh, I'm not sure...I've got a lot of thinking to do."
"Well, you better be ready because they're coming." I felt my heart beat start to speed up as I realized he was right and a pain hit me the second he stood up.
Friday, August 3, 2012
I told myself that I would take extra care of everything and so many people told me that Lucky Palms was the calmest town they've ever been to. Besides Langly Isle that is..
"What's going on, guys?" I asked, looking around me. Surprise filled my cheeks in the form of a giant blush which I instantly wished would go away, due to the fact that pink looks very bad on me.
"We've all come to wish you a safe trip and say goodbye for now..." Aphrodite ran up to hug me as everyone sat back with a sigh (Besides Riley who always had a tendency to scoff at anything cute or heartwarming.)
Trying so hard not to send the wrong signal, I grabbed his hand and pulled him into a hug where I whispered in his ear "Thank you...I'm so sorry.."
My new house wasn't far from the airport. Just around the corner and up a small hill. The beautiful house had brown finishing and a pool in the back yard. A cute 3 story house with flowers popping up in the front of the house.
I got the kids all in the house and before I knew it, I was standing outside staring at the stars. My excitement was through the roof because I was finally in a place where I could do what I wanted without being judged the way people have been judging me back in Langly island. I knew that this place was only about 50 miles away from Bridgeport but at the moment, it didn't scare me.
In the morning, I found a nice hospital that would do artificial insemination for me when I needed it. So, that's where I headed to. I hired a nice young woman to babysit for me. She looked about 17 or 18 years old but I trusted her...since she reminded me so much of myself.
Trust...is far too much for me though...and I realized that the second I reached the sidewalk in front of my house....Which was completely up in flames.
*To be continued*
*Two days ago*
Three amazing adults stood in my hallway. Brylin, Braelyn, and Braden were all ready to make their great escape into the big bad world. I watched Bluebird, Buttercup, and Bristole sigh after their favorite siblings who were now leaving the house and taking everything that helped establish their childhood.
I was looking forward to spending the next years of their lives spoiling them and giving them all my love before they leave me as well. Being a single mom is harder than it may seem.
Since that night when I trashed Spencer's office, things have been awkward. He called that day to confirm our appointment for that afternoon thinking that I had yet to give birth to babies 18-21. So, I agreed simply so I could explain exactly what happened.
I laughed, not sure exactly WHY we needed to get done fast.
"Spence, what's up?"
"Oh, I've got something going on tonight and I just need to finish up all my regular appointments."
"About last week..."
"Don't explain. I know the waitress down at the diner."
His tone was very blank and I didn't understand...Why was he acting so mad at me? It's not like I WANTED to sleep with Lucian. It wasn't my idea to get as drunk as we possibly could.
"Spencer, I-" He pressed his finger to my lips and pushed me back down on the bed so I couldn't look at him.
It was all finished before I knew it...And instead of trying to talk to him, I just left. This is exactly why I don't trust men. No matter what I do, it's never enough for Spencer.
I'm trying, okay? I can't please everyone. Arley still calls a lot. I ignore the calls most the time because I know that he'd just do the exact same thing that Spencer has done to me. Spencer has made it impossible to look at him as a friend and now he's just someone who's chasing me and won't let me be.
I knew for a fact that mom and dad wouldn't like this idea.
I finally closed my laptop and shut off the TV around 4 am. Baby was acting up and my stomach wasn't liking it very much so I decided to lay down. Sleep followed soon afterwards.
I called mom while making up some dinner. the conversation went a little like this....
"Hi babes, how are you holding up?"
"Oh, you know. fair enough."
"Are you coming tomorrow night? It's gonna be a lot of fun and you'll get to meet a few people just like you!"
"Mom. There is no one like me. Anywhere."
"Oh, you'd be surprised."
"I'm never surprised anymore, mom." I hung up the phone and sat it down just to find Canary hanging on my leg screaming "MOM! BREAKFAST!"
"How'd you get out of your cri-"
I tromped back to the kitchen with Canary on my leg and 3 other tots following close behind us.
"Mom! What are you doing?"
Bristole popped her head into the little room way up in the attic and was not very pleased with me.
"You're skinny as a stick and you're running? What are you thinking? You're gonna have some kind of shock or something!"
"I feel energized." I said, staring at the wall in front of me as I ran. "Running makes me feel good."
"You're gonna feel great when you kill yourself!"
I simply ignored her and went on running...That was, until baby decided to show up.
My mom sat on the other side of the room, Deep in conversation with my dad, Skye Everard, Paisley Parker, and Kalyn. I heard bits and pieces of their conversation, but only enough to know that they were talking about Aunt Kalyn's youngest daughter, Remmi.
The environment was so overwhelming and loud that I almost couldn't stand it. But I sat there anyway taking it all in and staring at the window.
"Hai." She said waving "You look like you're having a blast."
"Not really. This week hasn't been the greatest but I'm not gonna dump my problems on you."
"You know Spencer? He won't leave my love life alone."
"Neverrrr! Don't worry...I got this one."
She clapped my shoulder and walked out the door...What the hell?
And once again I was being pushed through a crowd and right to a tall brunette man with a sly grin on his face.
"Hi, Ande. I'm Eric Channing! Aphrodite never stops talking about how she wants me to meet you."
"Hey, I was ju-" But Aphrodite cut me off.
"You'd never believe the places that he's taken me, Ande! Have you ever seen that waterfall outside of town? We went swimming in it!"
I broke off as soon as I could and sought out my mom..
"Mom, I'm not happy here on Langly island anymore...I want to spend a little bit of time in Lucky Palms...for my mental health."
"Ande, I don't really like that idea much. You still aren't exactly in tip top health. I had Bristole calling me last night telling me that you were gonna starve to death and she wanted me to talk to you. I'm worried about you and here in Langly Island...I can check on you whenever. But, I can't do that if you're in Lucky Palms."
"But mom, I need to get away for just a little while...I'll be back before you know it."
"Call your dad in here. He should be a part of this as well."
So I did. I opened the door and gestured to him.
I put my hand in her face and started to talk. "Dad, if you let me go, I promise that I'll stay out of trouble. I'll be good. The kids would love it there and I'm sure you would too."
Dad bit his lip and they both shoved me out of the room for a very quick conversation over this.
When I was pulled back in, they got right up in my face.
"You get yourself into anything at all and we're pulling you straight out of there. You keep yourself full and I want to see a little bit of fat on those bones when you get back. Understand?" My dad asked, keeping my mom right next to him.
"I promise I'll do all those things...I just need a little time away."
"Why won't you give me a chance?"
I stared into his eyes for longer than I should have without answering.
"I'm leaving Spencer."
"Not until you answer me. I want to know."
"Because I don't want a relationship."
He didn't let go yet, the way he held onto my wrists brought bad memories as I just stared at him.
"I'm leaving the island. I'm going to Lucky palms. I don't like it here anymore."
"You can't be serious...What about the challenge?"
"I'll figure something out."
"Spencer, nothing can change my mind. I'm going and absolutely nothing anyone says can change my mind."
*3 hours later*
And as he was knocked to the ground screaming "WHYYYY?!"
Anna pointed at him and screamed "YOU KNOW WHY!"