Laura glanced at me from where she was sitting on the couch next to Ellie. She noticeably made a double take and then stared at me with a shocked expression. "Mom? You're hair looks great!" She smiled and stood up to join her sister looking out the window.
I was left alone with 3 children and 5 toddlers, no teenagers to help me out when I may need it. So I vowed to myself that these children would not be alone as long as I could help it. I wouldn't impose on anyone to take care of them besides myself. I phoned Spencer that night and he agreed to come over to my house and we'd continue the challenge.
"What?" He sat the coffee on the table and stared back at me. I took a deep breath and cleared my throat. "I want to go out with you."
His eyebrow raised and a smile formed on his lips. "Sorry, you're too late."
"Do you know how many times I asked you to go on a date with me? Lots. I gave up. I'm in a relationship."
My heart crumbled.
I gaped at him stupidly with my mouth hanging open. I could tell that he was slightly enjoying the way I was acting by the way he was looking at me. Staring at me as if he was studying my behavior.
"Why now?" He asked, my eyes shooting up to meet his. "Why not when I asked? Is it all on your terms?"
"N-No..." he stared straight into my eyes, his burning golden. "I just...needed change."
"So that explains the hair then too."
This set me off. I stood up and shoved my chair in. In a fit, I walked into my room and slammed the door.
My five babies were playing with each other on the floor in the living room where I joined them. They squealed "Mommy!" And jumped all over me, knocking me to the floor. I wrapped my arms around each of them, telling my babies how much I loved them.
"OMGANDEIHAVETHEBESTNEWS!" She screamed and I pushed the phone away from my face.
"Calm down!" I whispered back "The kids are in bed."
"ANDE I'M PREGNANT!" Once again my heart fell out of my chest. Aph was excited that she was holding a baby inside of her stomach and that was an every day thing for me.
"Aph! I'm excited for you!" I said in the most cheerful voice that I could muster but there was nothing about this that made me any happier then I already was, just depressed about my own miserable life.
She went on and on to explain that she's been doing all this shopping and hadn't had any time to even pick up phone or stop by. She told me she was about 9 weeks into it and was elated. I pushed through the conversation as well as I could.
I'm really sorry this post was so short but I have been really busy lately with school. I hope to have a few more posts out this month, hopefully 2 or 3. Really sorry for the long wait! I love all of you and please leave your feedback in the comments section.